That is the best title I can come up with.
It makes me laugh, because it reminds me of this Kanye West song featuring John Mayer. There is a video on youtube that goes with it. Makes me think of last summer with Riss. I miss you doll.
This week was a little Bittersweet. I had some crummy situations present themselves to me, but it didn’t affect me too deeply. The Holy Spirit has truly comforted me in my time of need and the Lord has provided encouragement, thanks to different opportunities and some awesome friends who are willing to listen to the Him. In my ECE 103 class, we were talking about depression. My teacher explained depression as being in certain situations and circumstances, where you know you should be happy but you are not. I find that I am reverse depressed. I find myself in situations where the old me, or the “flesh” me would be gloomy and moody for days, allowing myself to wallow in self pity or facing something where I know I should be sad. Now, I just accept whatever trials I face, and I face it with joy. This may be partially because of my laid back tendency, but this goes against my introverted and melancholy self. That is truly a God thing. The Holy Spirit provides joy! John 15:11 “These things I have spoken to you, that my joy may be in you, and that your joy may be full.” I find I have so much to be thankful for and I should not dwell on what I do not have. God has opened a new door for me to take, and it is going to be scary. Something new is always difficult, but at the same time, it is thrilling. This “open door” is bittersweet. Bitter to leave something behind, but it is sweet to face something new. Though there may be trials and adversity, I am going to face it with Heavenly Joy.
I have also been really embracing being a daughter of God! I was just reading some of Proverbs 31… Inspiration for a woman. I am also just really taking advantage of being single! Yes, I am a girl and I desire that romance, but I will have the rest of my life for that. Just like 1 Corinthians 7:34; it basically says an unmarried woman can devote herself wholly to the Lord, both body and soul, and be concerned of the Lords affairs, while a married woman has to also please her husband. Right now I am focusing all my desires for companionship and love towards the Holy Spirit, who the Lord sent to us. Oh How I grateful I am for the Holy Spirit! Such a comforter!
This past week I have been reading Matthew. It has been awesome! As Christians our goal is to live like Christ, but if you were like me, you don’t really know what that is like. I have learned a lot about Christ and how he lived.
Have any of y’all seen the Vintage Jesus videos? I seriously think that is how most Christians and Non-Christians view Jesus. (If you haven’t seen the videos, they are these short clips of old Bible movies, with voice-overs. It makes Jesus look very weak, timid, legalistic and arrogant. A church made these videos to demonstrate that this isn’t what Jesus is like, but with some comedic relief. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cAb8qoXraGw&feature=related You can take it either way…) Take a look at Matthew. He was not some conservative Christian. He is very blunt in his delivery and does not care what other people think. (I have been clinging to his words that he spoke in Matthew 10:22- “All men will hate you because of me, but he who stands firm to the end will be saved.”) One of my favorite things to read was Matthew 21:18. Read it. To me it shows both his human-ness and his power, plus the power we possess as Christians through the Holy Spirit. Just read it. So much to be learned in four verses!
Ok let me just say, I take a lot of time to write blogs. It may take me a few hours or days. In the case of this blog… a few days. And boy, has it been an awesome few days! Man the Lord has been at work! This morning, He confirmed something major at church. Just some awesome testimonies that go right along with my feelings of joy! Its so awesome to have other people in the body who feel the same way you do. Then tonight, my dear friend Timothy spoke at his church. And oh my goodness! Shaka! The Holy Spirit was there! No doubt of that! I prayed for conviction at the beginning of the service, and He gave it to me. (He is always faithful in that way) Through Timothy, He showed me I need to let go of my fear to be all that He has called me to be. I thought he was done and then he dropped the “P” word on me… Pride. That was a bit mind blowing. I had never thought I had pride, but the Lord revealed it to me! He revealed a whole lot more, but I am still letting it sink in. Man the Lord was there speaking to us!
I think I am finally getting to a stopping point. I don’t want to bore anyone. I could keep going on about how good he is… but if you know him you know.
I got a new camera! So I will take you through my week with pictures!
This week I took a break from Facebook to focus on reading. It was awesome! I never realized how much time I spend on Facebook. I think I may only get on during the weekend. I got to read a lot of Matthew, like I said, and read some of my woman book (“All I Need is Jesus and a Good Pair of Jeans”). I didn’t get to read much of “When Heaven Invades Earth,” unfortunately. I will next week. 
Another one of my passions is decorating! I love it! Me and my momma went to IKEA this past Tuesday; Ah I love that place! When I move out or get married, all my furniture and decore will be from IKEA. I LOVE that New York picture! I have had my eye on it for the longest time.
Me and Doss got sushi on Tuesday night; it was delicious. I tried out at new favorite… Shittake Maki. So good.
I had the pleasure of taking headshots for the lovely Lindsey!
Trish and the stink came into town. This kid is awesome!
This week was the last week of ASP. I am somewhat relieved to have a break from it, but I will miss my kiddos. Can’t wait till next year!
Kayla had a huge get together at her house… it was crazy! So many people! So much fun. Kayla dearest was probably knocked out for two days with all the excitement and people there. She was looking tired, but I am glad she got to be the social butterfly that she is.
Had a good breakfast with my friends and family. Trey was in his element with having all the attention. Have I mentioned I love that kid!?
Then there was the wedding! I loved getting to be a part of your family and getting to know y’all! Best wishes to you, Chelsea and Russell!
I promise to blog more! Its such a good way to vent. Happy Memorial Day!
